HELP! I’m a phone addict!
by Kirsten Harris
Calling mobile addicts anonymous…… I am an addict!
It’s my phone – it’s got a hold of me, and I can’t let it go!
Is it just me?
I am addicted to my mobile phone and it is time for me to get conscious about it!
I have read several blogs about text neck etc, but what about mobile addiction?
I am an addict!
My phone comes to bed with me, in the car, to the breakfast table, even to the loo! It would be true to say my phone goes every where with me! And if it goes missing in the depth of my handbag I panic! ‘OMG I’ve LOST my phone!’ No free neck in that moment!
My phone is checked ridiculously regularly. For what? It’s crazy! I am crazy!
Even in this little drawing of semi supine, the phone lies beside me. Albeit it gives the message OFF!
Recently I made a friend whose mobile had been stolen and who had decided to live life without one …just to see!
Wow! I was shocked to say the least! No texts! No messenger! No internet on the go! If we want to communicate we make a plan to meet and stick to it. Be there when we had agreed to… No ‘Are you still ok for today?’, ‘Running late’ or ‘Be there is 5!’ texts.
It feels totally liberating!
Why do we text nowadays to ask if the person is free to speak? Are we really THAT busy?
If I go out in my car without my phone I feel NAKED! VULNERABLE! Is the world really THAT scary? I live in rural Scotland for goodness sake!
So what am I going to do about it?
I know the answer is obvious – and it feels HORRIBLE! Practise some Alexander Technique inhibition. Practise saying NO to my phone. Practise leaving my phone in a drawer. Practise turning it off! Practise ignoring notifications, pings and buzzes that distract me, that feed my addiction….
But it might be something interesting!
And what if someone NEEDS me? What if there was an EMERGENCY?
I notice as soon as I write these words, that ‘what if’ is loaded with fear….
What are the fears attached to my mobile phone addiction? Fear of missing out? Fear of loneliness? Fear of DISASTER?
I love my mobile phone. I love the fact the world is at my finger tips….but I definitely have a habit with it.
I think the distracting device is keeping my brain switched on too much. Keeping my ‘wired!’
Facebook congratulates for being responsive! I am responsive!
It is time for me to let go a bit more…
Be responsive in other ways…
Be balanced mobile-y…
Find a deeper inner connection without being constantly bounced out of my self by the demands of the now now now www connection…
Not allow my mobile devise to become divisive…
Be I not I phone!
There is absolutely no need for me to be clutching an amazing shiny communication system in one hand ALL THE TIME…Time to free up my hands…Not just hands free.
I have choices to communicate in other ways …go knock on a friends door… write a letter….say hello…go out more…pray…lie in constructive rest…paint..
By allowing more NO to the wonderland distractions of my mobile I can allow my attention to direct inwards…Be more fully present…be more in my body moment by moment….connect to my creativity… the physical world…
My phone pulls me out of my deeper listening in an instant. Not so much responsive… more speedy and reactive!
I am about to start work towards a seascapes exhibition and I intuitively know that the brain waves to paint in my flow are different to the ones that are addicted to my phone.
It is time for some different moment by moment choices! It is time for me to find a balancing NO with my instant access web relationship and a YES to me and my painting.
How about you?
Am I the only addicted one out there?